After Brazil, I found myself unsatisfied by where I was and what I was doing. Something unusual had been awakened in me and all I wanted to do was live out adventures with God. I knew the impossible was possible and I wanted to see it as much as I could. After waiting for some time, I felt like God was telling me to head to a ministry school that I had been told about, and I was all for it! After the initial excitement of what my new life would be like wore off, "realities" began to set in. I had quit school in preparation for the move and I didn't have a job or any money with which to pack up my life and head hundreds of miles away. A move like that would cost at least a thousand dollars just to relocate and that's not even mentioning the cost of actually attending school. I had eight months to sit back and wonder what God would do. I knew where I was headed, but I had no clue how to get there. My entire life had been me figuring out ways to make things happen myself. I could have taken control and made everything happen, but in this particular scenario I felt like God wanted me to trust Him and let Him work out the way. Anxiously, I sat back and waited.....for 8 months.
6 months into the wait, things began to unfold. An unexpected, unprovoked source gave me $400, some unexpected money from an old job came my way, and before you knew it I had the money to at least move. Roommate chosen, deposit paid, and first month rent in hand, I loaded a truck and moved not knowing if I'd find a job in time or how I would pay tuition. I arrived in town and within one week I had a job and was registered for school. The 8 months of unknowns was finally winding down and things were beginning to take shape. What seemed to anyone (including myself) as an unemployed college drop out that had sorely misheard the Lord, was actually a person who was learning a long hard lesson, while watching the promises of God unfold.
It wasn't an easy road, it isn't the normal road.....work is a valuable thing that we have the ability to do, and except the Lord specifically telling me not to work lest I try and pave my own way to school, I would never have sat around for 8 months not working. It was one of the hardest times of my life, but in it I learned some of the most valuable lessons to date and I saw the hand of God pave a way through the impossible in which there was literally zero involvement from myself.
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